Well sorta... I was going to move to the other side of the continent. My dad is working in another state to help support me and my mother. It's been a crazy month, but at least we have each other in tough times like this. It's a good thing that my dad finally has a job, but it is bad because I haven't seen him in over a month, and I probably wont be seeing him for another couple of months. I miss him :( My house has been on the market for 2 weeks! (We have had many people come and see our house too) But my parents figured out a way to pay off their bills. So the less bills they have, the less money we need/ are spending, and then my dad can come back home and we wont have to move. So far things are working out great. My father took the house off the market like two days ago. Since I found out that I wasn't going to be moving on a short notice, I had to tell my teacher I wasn't moving and I told some friends. But the only thing I had left to do was join the clubs that I had wanted to join. And it sucked (at the time) because all of the applications and money orders we do the next day. I ended up staying up till midnight writing essays and completing applications forms. When the next day arrived it was hectic; I was running around my school like a crazy person. I had to get this teacher to sign something, and then I had to write this, and then I had to turn it it to someone, or give someone money. I was all over the place! The best part of my week is that I have no school on Friday (which is today). So I am catching up on some of my school work. Oh, and I need to pick out an outfit for tomorrow. I am going to my cousin's wedding. It should be fun.
So I am going to be trying this new thing where I try to be happy for the whole day, while I'm at school. I have a terrible habit of being mad at the world because of my own decisions I have made in the past. I don't know. It seems like all I do at school is mope around and not have any fun. This is my senior year in high school. I should be having fun, applying to colleges, hanging out with friends, making new friends. I don't want to deal with all of the drama that comes with being a 17 year old girl in high school. But I know it is inevitable. I also know that no matter how much I try not to stress, it gonna happen any ways. But I need to start thinking on a day to day. I have been so used to thinking about the future and trying to plan everything out. And most of the time, nothing happens according to plan. So why should I force it? I've had enough of thinking about when I am thirty years old. If I kept doing that, then I would've missed out on a decade of my life. My other goal is to not hold on to anything too closely. If something happens I will let it pass over me. Because, once again, if I don't, then I will always have a string attaching me to my past and I will never be able to reach beyond my limits and achieve so much more. I guess it is finally time to get the scissors, and cut the strings that are holding me back.
As a farewell I shall quote a line from one of my favorite movies: "All is well.".
